For a little while now I’ve been part of a Discord community, one I joined simply because a lovely twitter follower created and then shared it for people join.
I wasn’t sure what to expect when joining, but over time I’ve come to love being on there, chatting others bloggers or otherwise. But more than that it’s given me a lot of self-worth, the people over there have made me feel like I fit in to a little community, that I can be myself and that I feel loved by them all.
I am able to share my new years goals, share my blog stuff and share all the things I would otherwise keep to myself. They understand the things I share both good and bad, they push me and support me to do the things I talk about validating some of the things I’d otherwise feel anxious about doing or even sharing.
I can enjoy other peoples happiness, try to pick them up when they are down and just have fun socialising with others. I’ve even been inspired by fellow bloggers for my blog posts, whether it’s just seeing them post for a meme and gettig my own thoughts to join in, seeing their thoughts on a particukar subject and maybe going back to an idea I had started to write about but never finished or just in the case of January Jumpstart just finding a reason to write on my blog.
I’m out of the loop when it comes to taking pictures and wasn’t intending to share this one as I thought it was too simple, but was motivated from someone the above comminuty to edit an image and share so here you go.
I wrote about strength in last week’s Sinful Sunday post but little did I know I’d need all my strength to deal with a difficult house issue this week.
The strength to deal with the situation at hand and sort it out in the end even if it took 3 days and lots of stress. I was reminded by family how I did well with the situation and had comfort from Internet friends which gave me the feeling that I was strong enough to take charge and do what was needed, maybe not as perfect as others but for me it was good.
I had planned to do some more shots based on last week’s image and idea from that shoot but with life getting in the way I felt this image from last week’s shoot was perfect for this week rather than post nothing.
Life is never easy and no matter how hard it gets I am reminded of the strength I have. The strength to get through the tough times and the strength I need to make things fun, to be positive with not only myself but to be positive to others and even if it’s just a kind word.
The below image respresents strength in many ways, not only the fact I needed lots of strength for the multiples of photos I took during this shoot but the fact that I have this strength within me when I need it, even if it’s not physical strength to hold me up but mental strength.
I feel a desire for pain, pain of a different kind. The pain that will take all of lifes struggles out of my mind, that will calm me down and give me a certain pleasure. I will allow others to leave marks on me using various implents to do so and then enjoying the visual results from their efforts
I will feel all the pain but it will be worth it, the marks will stay for some time a reminder of all that who left them and the trust in them I placed. I will feel free and happy, especially as I go to work others not knowing what has gone on but noticing the wry smile on my face, asking questions about how I am.
I love when I get creative urges. The way an idea forms in my head and gets me excited to take photos, edit photos and ultimately share said photos for Sinful Sunday.
One such urge has been in the back of my mind for a year now. It was born from a day when I sat and drew one of my images with a pencil as shown below.
If I’m going to do it justice then it takes the right idea to pop up, planning said idea into something and taking the time to excecute said idea so that’s one reason it’s sat there along with the not having a desire to blog for a bit this year.
I’m being vague with my idea as I don’t want to spoil it, but below is the drawing which kicked it off. Below that is also the original image this is taken from.