Tag: Outdoors

[January Jumpstart 2023] – Body Count, I hate it but I don’t either

[January Jumpstart 2023] – Body Count, I hate it but I don’t either

The term body count is not something I’ve ever used no mater how many dating apps/sites I’ve been on, or how many times I’ve planned potential hookups.
For me it’s not important how many sexual partners others have had, if we’re getting together for sex, a date or even for a relationship I’m only focused on the here and now, whatever is happening between us and not what has gone on before me.

The idea that body count means something and might even affect things between two people is to me a strange idea. If you’ve slept with 1 or 100 people I don’t want to know, it doesn’t affect me and doesn’t change what would happen between us ince it’s going to be different to whoever you may have slepty with before.

In terms of my own body count, I rarely get asked that question and for the most part it’s never asked as “What’s your body count?”.
The way in which I feel like body count might benefit me is in explaining this to people be it hookups or whoever.
I’m not one to have had much sex in whatever way you care to define what constitutes sex, and so for me my own personal use the term body count is one I use to convey my lack of experience.
Sure I wish I had more sex now and in the past but the fact that my number is very low doesn’t matter as much and I’m definitely no one to say woe is me for his lack of sex.

What does matter is that whoever I’m with understands my lack of experience, understands they can’t expect things to go a certain way and understands that I want to do the best I can and we ensure us both getting as much pleasure out of the situation as possible.

At the end of the day body count in relation the to the amount of previous sexual partners doesn’t matter to me, I will never ask the querstion or mention the topic, yes I may bring up related things but more in a way that’s driving communication and understanding what we both might want to get out of the situation at hand. Be it my limited experiences with sex or the fact you might be more experienced in certain aspects I want to explore, these might come from body count but don’t refer to a number or the phrase itself.

[January Jumpstart 2023] – Dear Diary… Open Honest and Raw

[January Jumpstart 2023] – Dear Diary… Open Honest and Raw

Dear Diary…. Please for the love of God make this year my year.

I’ve talked about the year ahead and all my plans and goals but in 2023 I want to achieve as many of these as possible, I want to make this my best year ever.

I always have plans and ideas for what I want in the new year but for many reasons I never ever make these ideas a reality. I always put things off and then by the time I revisit them its usually at a time when I can’t do anything.

It’s a mental block that I must overcome, I showed myself in 2021 that I can do things but I also shower myself that I can fuck it up.

Not only is it a mental block but its more than that. Firstly a lack of confidence in myself, not in actually doing things as I know I can but just being confident in making ideas a reality which I can then plan out and achieve. Once I have ideas out there and I have no reasons that I can’t do them it’s getting easier for me to plan.

Secondly it’s not knowing how to go about doing certain things, where do I look and what do I do? What do I do without coming across as awkward and even how do I not fuck things up.

For example I’m booking a trip away with my mum with multiple trains, a couple of hotels and at least 2 cities visited over 5 days. In the past this wouldn’t have been something I’d have done, but having got through one of my mental barriers it’s been a little easier to do and this is the sort of thing I want for all aspects of life.

No I’m not perfect and I will fuck things up, I’ll have many grand ideas that never happen and there will be things that only I can try to make reality but will not get the confidence to do and that’s on me.

But please can I just make this year my best ever, one filled with joyous memories and good times. A year filled with love and a bigger confidence that I can do things, that I’m comfortable with more and more.

I no longer want to put things off, I not longer want to feel bad when I do and know that it’s all because of I rather than anyone else.

Not everything is possible in the year but for what is let’s have a great 2023

[January Jumpstart 2023] – Exploration goals

[January Jumpstart 2023] – Exploration goals

Exploration is a big part of of my blog and in 2023 is something I want to have more of, exploring not just for my own benefit and my own fun but to end up as part of my blog.

With January Jumpstart helping me havea good start to the year with my blog in which I an build upon it for the months to come, I also want to use it as way to help me start my year with some exploration through what I write, what others write and generally being around bloggers/NSFW social media who can inspire me to do exploration.

Of course I want to explore more outdoors and the images I can take since I did a lot in 21 but few in 22.
It’s also just fun to be outdoors, getting naked and taking images just makes it even better as dome getting to share some of these images to my blog for all to see and appreciate.

I wrote about touch in my last post and one of the first things I am maybe planning is touch related in a massage, something more than just a reguar massage though. Not only will I get a nice relaxing massage to help me de-stress but I’ll get the added fun of touch and depending on what I book it might also incluced fun extras where I can be mutually naked with someone and maybe even have thge excitement of being able to touch too.

One major exploration goal is also kink related, I would love to be able to explore more kink and not just on my own. I have no idea how this will work out if at all but in wiriting it down here I hope I can come back to the goal as the year progresses an,d maybe I can seek out advice from others who have maybe explored kink in the way I may do.

Another goal of mine is in travelling more and doing some personal exploration which may or may not be part of the blog.
Further on in the year I am looking to take some holiday time and hopefully travel somewhere new, and assuming I can get the confidence to apply for a passport and have the money I may want to travek abroad, explore a totally new country, city and culture to one I am used to.
I’m big on adventure too so any travel may include doing something adventurous like theme/amusement parks and riding roller coasters, no I’m not a coaster nerd as such, but I do love the adrenaline you get from going on them and I do like to know somewhat about the different parks out there abd what coasters they have.

I’d also love to explore the world of dating and seeing where that goes, I often miss having someone and I feel like now is a good time to get back into the dating scene and seeing whos out there.
Hoping my confidence in myself, beyond sharing stuff on this blog/social media, can get to a level where I’m comfortable enough in putting myself out there but then if I don’t try I’ll get nowhere.

So in 2023 there is lots of exploration I’d love to do, not all of it will be a reality as I know you can’t always do everything in life you want, but having these all as goals means I can do as much as possible.

#SWAP/February Photofest ’22 – Day 17 – The beauty of compliments

#SWAP/February Photofest ’22 – Day 17 – The beauty of compliments

Compliments are the topic this week for #SWAP, and while it’s not something I’d think about or write about as a standalone post I have enjoyed thinking about it and getting the thoughts for a post knowing it’ll be linked to the swap meme.

The first part of the prompt post states the following:
“I was reading a post on Reddit where someone had asked what is one thing guys never tell women and one person said the fact that if you compliment him he’ll remember it forever.”

The above answer for me is 100% true and while I may not remember exact compliments I will always remember those that give them as it means a lot to me whenever I’m complimented.
Now, these compliments can come in various forms, even ways that I might consider compliments in a roundabout way even if it wasn’t intended as a straight-up compliment.

The best compliments for me are those that go deep, where someone has noticed things I’ve done, the things I do where I’m not looking for compliments but just being myself and where it may not be a typical compliment.

Since I started blogging I’m sure regulars to my blog/Twitter will have seen lots of changes with me, and I remeber last year being (complimented?) in a way about how far I’ve come by i’m sure it was Floss of all people. I don’t know if she was complimenting me as such or just being nice, but it felt good to know she was noticing me, what I was doing and how far I had come personally/blogging because it’s one thing to see it through my own eyes but another to have someone else notice it too.

At the same time this wasn’t a singular thing that you might compliment someone on or that I might look for compliments on say a blog post or photo I posted which made it all the more special.

I do also enjoy when my blog content gets complimented on especially photos and specifically on one semi-recent photo that was included in a Sinful Sunday round-up .
The photo in question was a very sexual one, and for me these are not something I feel comfortable doing a lot as I lack the confidence to really know what I’m doing (I feel my lack of expereince IRL doesn’t help) but having liked the photo enough to post it I was initally just happy to be included in the round-up but then even happier to read the compliments which ended with “Just an A+ lewd!”

Outside of blogging I love the compliments I get for just be me, for being nice and lovely, for being appreciated at work or for the time when I shaved my head and a colleauge said nice things about it.
I don’t do these things for compliments which makes it nicer when they do come because it’s always somewhat of a suprise.

On the other hand I sometimes can’t take a compliment and one example is the blog.
I started the blog because of the toy reviews I did for littleswitchbitch’s blog and I’ve always given compliments talking about how she and the toy reviews helped me get to where I am with my blog, and it’s always been countered with the argument that it was all me that did it and not her which can be true.
I always maintain that she helped me get the blog going, she was one inspiration for blogging and how grateful I was to her getting me into writing reviews which I enjoyed especially just the writing as much as the toys themseleves.

Another example is the photo below I posted where I climed up a tree and was asked “How I managed to combine taking a photo with a timer- and not just that, taking a well constructed, interestingly framed photo- with climbing up a bloody tree.”
Of course I was grateful for the compliment but rather than accept it and look at the fact I was being complimented because I had “climbed up a bloody tree” my response was something like “oh, you just have to be limber” downplaying the compliment.

[February Photofest ’22 – Day 9] Multifaceted

[February Photofest ’22 – Day 9] Multifaceted

Multifaceted is a great word to describe me and the types of photos I take.

On the one hand, I love a lot of not vanilla things, like kink and taking photos with my kink gear as well as really going for various HDR and B&W edits on my photos, which can give them a certain look.

Today on the other hand is where I lean into my vanilla side, then part of me that has a desire sometimes for anything that isn’t kink and is much softer not only IRL but in my photos.

As it also happens to be hump day I had to go with a butt shot that I like as part of vanilla me, different from the last few days with a lot more colour in the edit I went with.

[Sinful Sunday] A lone pair of cuffs

[Sinful Sunday] A lone pair of cuffs

Within the woods is a lone collar and cuffs set hanging from a tree.
It was once used on someone, gave them pleasure from being collared and cuffed, but it now hangs on its own having been cast aside.

I am reminded though that even though the collar and cuffs were set aside there is beauty surrounding them, and they will be used again as just like in my own life there is beauty surrounding me and I will get to a certain stage again.

See Sinful Sunday here