I feel a desire for pain, pain of a different kind. The pain that will take all of lifes struggles out of my mind, that will calm me down and give me a certain pleasure. I will allow others to leave marks on me using various implents to do so and then enjoying the visual results from their efforts
I will feel all the pain but it will be worth it, the marks will stay for some time a reminder of all that who left them and the trust in them I placed. I will feel free and happy, especially as I go to work others not knowing what has gone on but noticing the wry smile on my face, asking questions about how I am.
I love when I get creative urges. The way an idea forms in my head and gets me excited to take photos, edit photos and ultimately share said photos for Sinful Sunday.
One such urge has been in the back of my mind for a year now. It was born from a day when I sat and drew one of my images with a pencil as shown below.
If I’m going to do it justice then it takes the right idea to pop up, planning said idea into something and taking the time to excecute said idea so that’s one reason it’s sat there along with the not having a desire to blog for a bit this year.
I’m being vague with my idea as I don’t want to spoil it, but below is the drawing which kicked it off. Below that is also the original image this is taken from.
Huge congrats to Molly for reaching 600 weeks of Sinful Sunday, what a milestone that is and definitely one to proud of and celebrate.
My first ever post for Sinful Sunday on the blog just so happened to be for week 500, and 50+ photos later I find week 600 coincides with a belated 2 year anniversary of my blog. So what better way to mark both occasions by taking some photos.
The below photo combines a few out of many aspects Sinful Sunday has brought to me since I started posting for it on the blog. I’ve certainly come a long way in 2 years with the photos I take and they are now much better shot than when I first started, with editing and filters used where needed to enhance some of my shots.
Here’s to many more weeks of Sinful Sunday and hopefully I’ll still be around to celebrate week 700.
I was reminded of the fact that my blog is now just over 2 years old and it’s something I’m extremely proud about. When I started the blog I had no real idea what I was doing, my intention was to explore myself whether that was sharing past explorations, diving deep into new things in the present and whatever I may have in the future.
The adult in the title was twofold. Firstly because I am an adult and can look at things from the past with a slightly more mature mind where I understand things better, but also because my content would be of a more NSFW adult nature.
To think I’ve lasted two years, that I’m still blogging to some degree and to see how it has helped me in some ways is an acheievement, considering the account on which my blog is hosted was started 6 years ago meaning it took me 4 years to finally get the courage to start a blog
One area which I’ve explored a lot more since starting the blog has been kinks and related topics. This has been brought about through reading other bloggers stuff, seeing a lot more through new people I follow on Twitter and through blog memes like Kink Of The Week where I’ve as I say above “dived deep” and made written posts detailing my throughts.
Some of my thoughts and feelings on kink and related topics haven’t made it into posts on my blog but all these along with any that lI did write about led me to jump at the chance I had to possibly review a number of BDSM type items of my choosing. I ended up with a flogger, paddle, ball gag, restraints and a nipple clamp collar for review and some of these would allow me to explore kinks more IRL than just what I had thought about or written about, while other items would allow me to further explore kinks I knew I liked but hadn’t experienced outside oif improvised toys/impliments or the like.
The paddle was one such impliment I was keen to use because I was aware of being interested in some levels of pain and the bruising I had particularly from the last Tattoo I had done. I ended up feeling good with the on and off pain while loving some nice bruising I noticed afterwards in a pic my artist took immediately once he was done inking me.
The restraints where an item I had loved in my thoughts but didn’t know if i’d be excited IRL with the idea of being restarined so having them to use on myself before I let anyone else restrain me. It was the perfect way to explore and get a feel for things and it turns out I loved not only the restraints I got but the feeling of being restrained IRL has been hot the multiple times I added it in to a play session.
I won’t go into details on all the things, but it’s safe to say I am finding out just what I love 100%, what I love in the right situations and what I may not like.
I’m way more confident and comfortable in myself that the next step in this exploration is to hopefully add someone or many people in the mix, start to look at ways I can play with others and not just play solo. Things like my flogger are not something I can really use on myself to any great degree so I’d love to have someone else give me a flogging and also experience from my sub side. Consensually giving someone control over how they proceed going from a slow start and building up once I’m know what I like and how far they can take things.
It may not happen right away and I don’t expect it too but for now it’s something to work towards and honestly I’m just excited that I’ve made it to 2 years of blogging and that It’s led to wanting to explore more IRL so happy anniversay to me and here’s to hopefully many more years of blogging.
When I started exploring kink, Impact Play was one of those in the back of my mind that I brought forward and started to realise that it was something I liked, but for a while, that’s as far as I went with it.
It’s not until the last year or so that I’ve really gotten into playing with Impact Play solo, firstly as I am hoping to include fun play sessions into my life and including kink, while secondly I also had the option to get some kink toys for review which I did especially those for Impact Play use.
Being very submissive means I’m more likely to want to be the receiver of impact play, and if I’m being I don’t think I’d be a great giver, though if it were to be some light-hearted fun then I wouldn’t say no to giving and maybe even learning what works best based on who I am.
The two of several items I got for review as mentioned above were a paddle and a flogger, both useful for impact play and a great way to start playing with it on myself and really getting used to what I like and don’t like plus knowing roughly how much pain I can take.
For me, impact play is not something I have in my routine at the moment, it’s saved for when I’m in the mood for it and when I have the time to really play with it. That’s not to say it couldn’t be added to my routine though that would likely be more for when I have a partner/play partner or someone I allow to indulge in impact play with me.
Marking is something I’ve found comes easy on me, with a little force several times I can start to show the first visible signs of any implements used on me, and after a while, they get even more visible until I’m fully bruised which is where a lot of the fun comes into play for me. Yes I love the pain aspect which gives me lots of pleasure, and I’m sure when I have my first experiences in impact play with someone else that allows them control over this pain I’ll enjoy it even more, but the visual aspect during and particularly afterwards is what does it for me.
I’m not 100% sure how or when I’ll get this experience with someone else or when I’ll visit something like a kink market but I do know it’s something I want to happen sooner than later as I recently had some fantastic solo impact play that cemented it as a thing I wanted to do more than just on my own..
Here are a couple of images I took for February Photofest ’22 on my blog and show the 2 states of impact play on my butt.
This first one was right in the middle of a short session while I was in the mood and wanted to take some pics for my blog at the same time. As you can see I was somewhat red with a little bruising starting to show on one of my cheeks.
The second image was a day or more afterwards where you can see how bruised I had got even though I hadn’t gone too hard on myself nor had I used the paddle on all of my ass cheek. After this pic was taken I started playing with the left most cheek, though I didn’t take any pics as I was having too much fun.