I’ve only ever had one cock to play with outside of my own, but that one cock despite being on a man who did very little for me otherwise was enough to know that I loved cock.
I took him from fully clothed to fully naked with some playing through his clothing which in itself was a pleasure. On the other hand, taking his dick from flaccid to rock hard was even more pleasurable.
I love the feeling of a hard dick in my hand, I love to feel it throb as I move up and down the shaft and I love seeing it fully erect from the pleasure I give it.
Having it in my mouth too is even better as I get it all wet starting off by working the head before I take it all in and seeing how far I can go before I gag. There’s no better feeling than my lips wrapped around a hard wet dick.
I’m submissive so as much as I love the idea of having someone’s cock as I please, I also like them dictating things especially if they want to face fuck me and make me gag or even just dictate what I do and how they want me to do it.
The last guy I was with let me fuck him on our second meeting and being able to play with his rock-hard cock as I thrust in and out of him was one of the hottest things I have experienced so far.
Anal play is so much fun for me and as I fucked him I knew the pleasure he was having made playing with his cock that much better for him and by extension I too.
As I mentioned, the guy was not for me in the end but ever since that session I had with him I get days where I crave a cock and can’t help but just get so turned on by the thoughts of his cock and just having any cock in general.
There may be possibilities for cock in the future, I say there may be because I don’t want to get too far ahead of myself but I will say that it’s fun to share my own cock with someone via messages and get to see their cock alongside hot chatting interspersed among everyday conversations, or should it be the other way around?
In the absence of an IRL cock for now I do have a dildo to play with and take some hot pics just like this one.
If you’ve followed my blog or are a follower on Twitter then you will know how much I love getting out into nature, especially when the weather is good and this usually means I am amongst the trees.
For the most part, being surrounded by trees is not only a way for me to enjoy the nice weather but also de-stress and get away from whatever is happening in my life.
The birds chirping away, the sun shining through, and the sounds of a light breeze passing through. These all help calm me down and be at peace for a while.
On the other hand, I love getting to be naked and surrounded by trees. The warm sun is on my naked skin as I embrace trees of all shapes and sizes.
Most trees are great for just feeling the texture of bark against my skin as I lean or sit on them and just take in their beauty,
Naturally, when I get naked I am usually accompanied by the horn and this leads to lots and lots of picture taking. I have a few places I like to go to and each one is different from the others as is each tree within these places which inspires my creativity.
Some trees are small enough that I can climb up, others are big and imposing and some are just uniquely shaped giving me the options to pose in different ways or get various angles for my photos.
Being naked within the trees also adds a fun element of exhibitionism and the idea that at any moment I can be seen by someone. I don’t usually get naked in the more public areas for obvious reasons nor do I seek out the most hidden areas so it’s always on my mind that someone might be walking by just as I did.
It helps that there are places near me and also somewhere in town, where I can get out into the trees for a relaxing walk and to help my mental health or because I want to get naked and take pics.
Below are some pics I’ve taken previously.
Over the last year and a half, I’ve come to realise that through the images I take there is a part of me that loves others getting to see these images, getting to see me naked. There is also a love for the thought that people IRL might see me getting naked outdoors for these pics, or just seeing me naked as I walk about my house and do regular everyday tasks or even as I shoot images.
When it comes to self voyeurism though I’m somewhat mixed in my feelings for a number of reasons.
On the whole, taking the types of images I do doesn’t immediately turn me on if at all when I look back at them. I am always more turned on by the act of being naked and doing the things that I capture with my phone camera, as well as being turned on by being naked outdoors and the potential for me to be seen.
As the act of taking photos was fun and hot that was the main reason I did them and while I enjoyed the end result from an aesthetic point of view that was mostly all that I got out of things
In 2020 though I had ended up in a situation where I had someone who liked and encouraged me to shoot some outdoor videos of self-pleasure as they virtually joined me on occasions messaging. Said person would then consent to having the videos sent to them for their viewing pleasure, and it was here where I found the only bit of self voyeurism creep in.
The fact I had spent 8-10 minutes outdoors having some seriously fun self-pleasure that I shot for someone was hot as was the ending in which I orgasmed more than I ever had. When I looked back on it I thought about who I’d sent the video to, how the hot conversations between us were, and that it had turned me on badly plus how it made that orgasm in a big way, and for once I enjoyed watching the video back for all these reasons.
Apart from the above video though, there has never been another time where I’ve looked back on videos or photos I’ve taken and been turned on.
Yes, I’ve taken images and thought that I looked good, had a nice ass or appreciated a good shot (Lighting, poses…etc) but then I just see myself and know that while someone else may be turned on I know myself too well to get turned on.
If anything I’d rather be a voyeur of other people and also let them watch me or see my images and make their own minds up as to how they feel, and if they happen to like things then that makes me happy enough.
For those that don’t know me or don’t know me that well, I happen to have many interests and hobbies.
Within this are 3 main stages in which these hobbies and interests exist.
The first is those which are a major part of my life that I indulge in every day or as much as possible, for example, music.
The second is things that are of great interest to me but which I only indulge in now and again.
The last is those which I take a fleeting deep interest in for say a day or two and come back to it once every few years.
One of my major interests beyond music is tech and in particular computers which go away back to my childhood.
Growing up particularly in the early 90s as a young child there was always a computer of some sort in my house, my dad was into them and so an early memory is having Amiga A500 followed by a PC.
As I got a bit older I was given a semi-custom built Windows 98 PC of my own in my bedroom, albeit I was never connected to our home internet at the time, but still, I remember having so much fun playing games on it and eventually just messing with not only Windows but the hardware inside as I got curious about what made up my PC.
During my teenage years, this interest in computers grew and I eventually began to learn how computers were built through my dad who worked in a small independent computer shop. This learning was also gained through tinkering with the insides of my own computer until I eventually started college and properly built my first PC from scratch.
Ever since that first PC build, I’ve continued to take an interest in PC hardware and components while building many more of my own computers over the years and being the tech in my family.
When I get to build my own computer fully from scratch it’s very much a fun process from planning and starting it to finishing things.
As I tend to have a strict budget, not only overall, but for each part, I get to have fun looking up what components and parts I can get that not only fit within that budget but also give me the best performance.
Then again with things like the case, the fun is based on not only finding something that can fit everything in but that also looks great.
For me at least, I don’t always get everything from the same place or at the same time so I often have several parcels coming at different times and days so I get more than one excitement.
Then there’s the excitement of seeing some parts but not being able to use them until other things arrive and so I see stuff sitting around as I wait.
Once everything arrives there is then the excitement of getting to build the PC, unboxing all of my new parts, seeing everything all shiny and new for the first time IRL and not just on product photos or in YouTube videos.
I get to put everything together, ensure all the cables are, as neat and tidy as possible and then the excitement of finally powering it all on. There’s a little moment where I don’t know if it’ll work the first time, have I connected everything and if so is it fully connected all of which I find out in a second or two as I stare at a monitor looking for it to flash as the screen changes and I see something pop up.
Once everything is working there’s still the matter of installing Windows, making sure all my hardware is set up with the latest drivers and that I have all my required apps and games installed before I can call it a day and get to use my PC.
Below are several images of computers I’ve built myself over the years, not only getting better as tech progresses but also because I’ve had a lot more spare income to get better components.
Here is a computer I built around 2008
This one is from around 2010
This one is from 2012 when I reused some still useful parts from the above PC. I also ended up making some upgrades to it over the years to get a little more performance out of it
Finally, this is my most recent PC build from 2019 when the PC above started to fail and otherwise generally feel slower as the years moved on, even with upgrades I had made.
I’ve also included a picture with some of the parts I bought and one when I was in the process of building the computer in my old case before I had decided on a new one.
When I started exploring kink, Impact Play was one of those in the back of my mind that I brought forward and started to realise that it was something I liked, but for a while, that’s as far as I went with it.
It’s not until the last year or so that I’ve really gotten into playing with Impact Play solo, firstly as I am hoping to include fun play sessions into my life and including kink, while secondly I also had the option to get some kink toys for review which I did especially those for Impact Play use.
Being very submissive means I’m more likely to want to be the receiver of impact play, and if I’m being I don’t think I’d be a great giver, though if it were to be some light-hearted fun then I wouldn’t say no to giving and maybe even learning what works best based on who I am.
The two of several items I got for review as mentioned above were a paddle and a flogger, both useful for impact play and a great way to start playing with it on myself and really getting used to what I like and don’t like plus knowing roughly how much pain I can take.
For me, impact play is not something I have in my routine at the moment, it’s saved for when I’m in the mood for it and when I have the time to really play with it.
That’s not to say it couldn’t be added to my routine though that would likely be more for when I have a partner/play partner or someone I allow to indulge in impact play with me.
Marking is something I’ve found comes easy on me, with a little force several times I can start to show the first visible signs of any implements used on me, and after a while, they get even more visible until I’m fully bruised which is where a lot of the fun comes into play for me.
Yes I love the pain aspect which gives me lots of pleasure, and I’m sure when I have my first experiences in impact play with someone else that allows them control over this pain I’ll enjoy it even more, but the visual aspect during and particularly afterwards is what does it for me.
I’m not 100% sure how or when I’ll get this experience with someone else or when I’ll visit something like a kink market but I do know it’s something I want to happen sooner than later as I recently had some fantastic solo impact play that cemented it as a thing I wanted to do more than just on my own..
Here are a couple of images I took for February Photofest ’22 on my blog and show the 2 states of impact play on my butt.
This first one was right in the middle of a short session while I was in the mood and wanted to take some pics for my blog at the same time.
As you can see I was somewhat red with a little bruising starting to show on one of my cheeks.
The second image was a day or more afterwards where you can see how bruised I had got even though I hadn’t gone too hard on myself nor had I used the paddle on all of my ass cheek.
After this pic was taken I started playing with the left most cheek, though I didn’t take any pics as I was having too much fun.
Still lingering is the bruise I got the other day, a reminder of pain for pleasure.
Being turned on makes for a hot bulge in a pair of undies, perfect to get a shot of.
What I love in a photo is not only close-up shots, but from that the little details, the things you might not always see at a distance.