“The day I changed was the day I quit trying to fit into a world that never really fit me.”JM Storm
When it comes to change I’ve never liked having to change to fit into the world, and ever since my teens I’ve always avoided it as much as possible because at the end of the day that’s not ME, it’s not who I am and likely never will be.
In everyday life I try to do what makes me happy, be the person I love to be and not care what others may think of that.
Yes I label myself as male as that’s what I’ve always done, but I don’t conform to the way the world might want me to even if not all of me is out in the open.
Being an adult has made me reaslise that I’m bi/pan but it’s also shown me that I also don’t see myself in a typical male/guy way.
While I don’t want to be feminine and dress up in female clothes I do appreciate lingerie more than just wearing it for pleasure in a sexual way but because I enjoy wearing it like the opposite sex would everday and also just enjoying the way it looks.
I also see myself as being able to enjoying everything and anything whether it’s meant for male, female or any gender really even it’s not the one I call myself.
I’ve had comments on my apperance before from somone relating to my hair and beard on multiple occasions. Whether it was telling me I needed a hair cut or that my beard made me look like terrorist I’ve often related these comments to their view on how I should look vs how I choose to look and what makes me happy.
Of course I have shaved my beard off as well as self-shaved all my hair, but this has been because I wanted to do it rather than giving in to those comments.
In simple terms I do what I want and avoid what I don’t, that’s what makes me who I am. I quit trying to fit into the world in my teens but it’s only been as I got older where I’ve taken teen me and kept him going albeit with an adult head on.